I show whatever I want to show Not whatever I feel I could be standing on a death row And you would never know what's the deal

From away it's weird and stupid And from close it's awful Because you never get to know the struggles I did And you think if I am even truthful

I am not belittling or making you feel dumb But it's what more rationality does It makes you either emotionally too strong or numb And honestly it's not a phase

I sometimes let away some signs Something to let people know it's not all good Sometimes a bulb shines But accepting the sign isn't something I would

In that case you are left with two ways to go You can stay and sit along Or you can let me be me you know And frankly none of them is wrong

People tell me what I do is wrong The facade is false and bound to fall You are a psychopath not strong And help is as far as a call

But all I do is laugh Not sharing keeps everyone safe And that's not even truth's half But other's safety is all I care

They leave me alone And give me some peace While I sort it on my own Till it finally starts to cease